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Review: Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterman

Sunday, 12 July 2015 0 comments
Challenger Deep, by Neal Shusterman
Publication: April 21, 2015, by HarperCollins
Genre: Young Adult Fiction, Contemporary
Pages: 320
Format: Hardcover
Source: Borrowed
Rating: ½


Caden Bosch is on a ship that's headed for the deepest point on Earth: Challenger Deep, the southern part of the Marianas Trench.
Caden Bosch is a brilliant high school student whose friends are starting to notice his odd behavior.
Caden Bosch is designated the ship's artist in residence, to document the journey with images.
Caden Bosch pretends to join the school track team but spends his days walking for miles, absorbed by the thoughts in his head.
Caden Bosch is split between his allegiance to the captain and the allure of mutiny.
Caden Bosch is torn.
A captivating and powerful novel that lingers long beyond the last page, Challenger Deep is a heartfelt tour de force by one of today's most admired writers for teens.

My Thoughts:

Huh. I don't really know how to organize my feelings after this one. Shusterman's Challenger Deep actually was a huge challenge for me, and I'm certainly surprised to see most of the bookish general public adoring and continuously raving about the book with high hopes. To me, this was a huge let-down and filled with mostly negatives. To sum it all down, I'm just going to state what I liked and what I disliked because this is just an annoying mental-illness read. AND I USUALLY LOVE THEM.

"The thing is, I never had social anxiety before—I was always pretty confident and outgoing. They don't know—I don't even know yet—that this is the start of something bigger. It's just the dark tip of a much larger, much deeper, much blacker pyramid." (Hardcover, page 35) 

Before I actually get started, I'm just going to let you know that it's a very eerie, strange book. It's written in two perspectives, both of the same character, our protagonist, Caden. Though in one, it's actual reality and the other talks about him being on a ship headed to Challenger Deep, the deepest point of the Marianas Trench. I guess that kind of makes sense in the way Caden's struck with a mental illness that he just can't comprehend and realize, but it's just plain weird. In the real world, he's so monotone and doesn't have the attention span to look upon positive things, join a sports team to disfigure his anxiety and make friends. He can't do none of that, instead he spends most of his time in his imaginary world with the ship, captain and other people. Childish much?

My reaction.
What I Disliked About the Book and Shusterman's Writing:

-Again with the weird thing. This book seemed so childish, and I certainly hadn't come here for a pure middle-grade novel. I just can't bear to see the importance of the ship, the artwork, just about everything. This book lacked a real plot that would make readers learn and enjoy the symptoms of mental illness, all in my opinion.

-Caden's perspective. Most of the time I grow to have a relationship with characters who suffer from anxiety and depression. Caden? Not so much. It's not that I didn't feel sympathy or anything like that... I just couldn't get what he was trying to tell readers about his story. It's like there was some mega-huge wall barrier between readers and his inner thoughts, and I grew bored. Everything he mentioned seemed super dumb, and this wasn't the time to go deep with the meaning. At least, the mental illness was broadcasted nicely, which we'll soon get to.

-The constant questioning of the right thing to and flashbacks. The flashbacks which Caden brought readers back to were nice... but he made them look so negative. The happy moments he shared with his parents—those were like hell to him when nothing was wrong. Although he has a mental illness, I wish that it wasn't looking like something that he understood too well. He seemed to "know the right thing to do" but would question the wrong.

"I try to relax, but I can't. My reflection looks worried. Am I worried? That's not quite what I'm feeling today—but lately my emotions are so liquid, they flow into one another without my noticing." (Hardcover, page 67)

Um. Well that was a little awkward to rant about, but it's the truth, my wonderful friends. I'd actually would like to explore the Marianas Trench, which leads me to my next point:

What I Actually Liked About the Book and Shusterman's Writing:

-The information that wasn't actually supposed to be facts. Caden's imagination leading him to basically 'hallucinating' the Challenger Deep thing was really cool, and the ending especially shocked me as he went to explore his destination that Shusterman meant readers to get introduced to from the start. It was really interesting to read about, and the ending probably was the best part of the book.

-The philosophical view of life presented. God and death are continuously mentioned throughout the ending, and I liked the way it all gave the book a fresh closing. Who would've seen that coming?


You go, Morgan Freeman.





When seeing this book at my local library's catalogue, I requested it right away because I was sure that it'd impress. And here I am, ready to bawl my eyes out because I'm disappointed. The cover was promising, the other reviewers' remarks of this being the new It's Kind of a Funny Story were promising, I just knew that I'd love it. In conclusion, after it all, this is one of the only mental illness novels that failed to impress me. It's a very sensitive subject found in YA that only certain writers can pronounce perfectly, and from my viewpoint, Shusterman was not an author who expressed it amazingly, though there were some positive aspects. I do recommend it to some who prefer a lyrical kind of story. (Not me.)


So that's my not-so positive review! What do you feel about disliking a book that others enjoyed?

All the Bright Places by Jennifer Niven Review: OMGOMGOMG BEST BOOK EVER.

Saturday, 18 April 2015 6 comments
All the Bright Places, by Jennifer Niven
Publication: January 6, 2015, by Knopf
Genre: Young Adult Fiction, Contemporary, Romance, Mental Illness
Pages: 388
Format: Hardcover
Source: Purchased
Rating: 

The Fault in Our Stars meets Eleanor and Park in this exhilarating and heart-wrenching love story about a girl who learns to live from a boy who intends to die.
Soon to be a major motion picture starring Elle Fanning! Theodore Finch is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might kill himself. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him. Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death. When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it’s unclear who saves whom. And when they pair up on a project to discover the “natural wonders” of their state, both Finch and Violet make more important discoveries: It’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself—a weird, funny, live-out-loud guy who’s not such a freak after all. And it’s only with Finch that Violet can forget to count away the days and start living them. But as Violet’s world grows, Finch’s begins to shrink. This is an intense, gripping novel perfect for fans of Jay Asher, Rainbow Rowell, John Green, Gayle Forman, and Jenny Downham from a talented new voice in YA, Jennifer Niven.

WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN? WHERE CAN I BEGIN FANGIRLING? WHERE WILL I BEGIN TELLING YOU ABOUT ME BAWLING LAST NIGHT? If you would like to hear about one of the best reading experiences where I wandered into a magnificent world, then join me here, because I'm telling you (I'm SCREAMING TO YOU) that All the Bright Places changed my life. I am now a person who I actually never wasn't, and Jennifer Niven has transformed me and I'm lost without words as the experience was remarkable. I want to rub it into all of your faces that this is my book, alright?



You know, I get envious when I'm not part of the fandom of a particular book that has changed everyone's lives and their hearts have really begun pumping like a hummingbird's. I've heard about this gorgeous beauty since mid-last year, and all of the crazy-ARC reviewers were going crazy. The hype was real, everyone, and I couldn't wait to be part of it. So then when this was released, I bought it right away and since then, it was sitting in my book shelf, waiting. I was so stupid for not picking it up earlier, as its pages definitely deserved tons of love from the start. "Finch and Violet, OMG" is what I've been hearing since the start, and now I know what has caused me to ache and have to read it.

Also, comparing it to John Green is the most brilliant comparison one can possibly make. If John Green hasn't read this already, then I'm literally in tears. This is exactly his kind of book, and something that he would've written. His wit, the romance, EVERYTHING was so "him," but of course this was original and beautiful in its own perfect way. Also, it was perfect as Eleanor and Park as well, and the romance was so deep and special just like it. Summary-writers sure know how to captivate readers into picking up the book, hm?

"Is today the day? And if not today—when? I am asking myself this now as I stand on a narrow ledge six stories above the ground. I'm so high up, I'm practically part of the sky."
The funny (but thing that led me into knowing that I will adore this book) was that I found a gorgeous quote on the FIRST PAGE. That proves total love-at-first-sight with me, and it rarely happens. And actually, if you see the amount of quotes that I've found in this book, you'd probably pass out because I've found this so inspirational (not that I'd want to follow Finch's suicidal thoughts) and like a guide into being a teenager and living freely, which was so encouraged throughout the whole story. DOESN'T THAT PROVE THAT I'M A MAD READER?


I will not ever say that the plot was simple. It wasn't—it was complex, and you'll have to have a heart for these types of books to actually understand and feel the emotions. And before I go on any longer, let me just say that I ended up crying to my fullest extent, bawling, sobbing, laughing and snickering throughout. No book has EVER. EVER, left me with those kinds of emotions. And I can tell you that The Fault in Our Stars was originally the book that I cried the most in, but this one has taken the new throne, after 3 years. I LOVE TO CRY WHEN READING SINCE THAT TELLS ME THAT THE FEELINGS ARE REAL.

This all begins (a beautiful legacy) when Finch is standing on the ledge of his bell tower at his high school. This is yet another one of his suicide attempts, and he's 5/10 percent likely to jump (or even fall out). Once he's gathering his thoughts and he feels like he's about to do it, he sees that there's another girl on the other side of the tower, about to jump as well. She saves him, and they both end up getting off and leaving. Little do they know that after that encounter, their lives will change forever. Finch immediately cannot believe how Violet is someone so much like him, who feels the same things after her older sister, Eleanor, died in a car crash, with Violet right by her side in the passenger seat. Finch is extremely depressed and is noted that he may be bipolar, where his family doesn't understand him and since his parents are newly divorced. Once they get assigned a Geography project to see the wanders and sights of Indiana where they live, Finch immediately wants to work with Violet, and so they head off, visiting places that they take memories from, leaving some things behind as well.


Still after 12 hours, I feel like I'm at a funeral. Yeah, there's no more tears, but now all of the depressing thoughts and me thinking of what happened after are floating into my head. I remember bawling last night and tears are forming in my eyes and I just can't stand it anymore. *sobs* But what had meant a lot to me were the themes and messages pushed into readers' minds throughout. A big thing here is suicide and mental illness. You see, another one of the reasons why this novelette was so unique was because both characters, protagonists and love interests had suicidal thoughts. They both dealt with some sort of loss somehow, with Violet losing her sister and being unable to cope with anything else anymore, and Finch losing his parents being together and his family as a whole. Together, I felt like they helped each other so much, and if that moment of fate hadn't put them together and saved them, they both would've been gone, and never would've seen the bright places. 

"We add a few more books to the pile, and at some point I catch her eye and she's smiling at me. It's the kind of smile you smile when you're thinking someone over and trying to decide how you feel about them. I smile at her and she looks away."
AWWW AGH. Friendship and love is another big thing, as you can tell. If you look at the character development of both from beginning to end, they both progressed differently. Finch saw something special in Violet from the beginning, and he fell in love with her more quickly, and his obsession and need for her to be with him was strongly there. Violet, on the other hand, didn't see her love for Finch as quickly, but them spending more time together brought them closer, as it usually does. They were two halves of a whole, and whenever they'd be spending time without each other, I even saw that something was missing from both of them.

I, myself, I fell in love with Theodore Finch. I had more of a love for him, stronger than Augustus Waters, Four, Will Herondale, Jace, Jem, more than any fictional male character who's come into my heart. Finch touched my heart, and I wanted to hold his hand, sit in his walk-in closet with him and add sticky notes to the walls. He broke my heart and mended it again, and I needed more of him from the start. He can certainly be a remedy for someone's sadness, but as we saw, he can never be a remedy for himself.

"Ultraviolet Remarkey-able, I think I love you.' So that she doesn't feel she has to say it back, I kiss her again, and wonder if I dare do anything else, go any further, because I don't want to ruin this moment."
Did I mention that he's passionate and such a romantic guy? OMG AND AGH THE FLOWER SCENE AND HIM RUNNING SIX MILES TO VIOLET'S HOUSE BROUGHT A TSUNAMI OF TEARS ONTO MY COPY. I just couldn't let go of those small tiny moments that meant so much to the characters and to myself as well. I need him, and I feel like he's my best friend since he's so easy-going and wonderful. I just can't believe how unpredictable his personality goes, and how his bipolar disorder just changes him completely. *sobs for the fiftieth time*


Though both Finch's and Violet's perspectives meant so much to me, Violet's was really touching my heart. When I read her POV, I saw me in her. She's a writer, she loves reading and if a teacher assigns twenty pages, I'll give them thirty. She was so hilarious and though she tried to play hard-to-get, she couldn't hold it any longer and she had to love him. *feels come all over again* I adored her so much, and I'm sure that Elle Fanning will play a perfect role of her, because I pictured Elle as her from the start. And together, the kind of connection that they had was something unbelievable. No other couple that I've ever read about had that kind of connection. They're so beautiful, they're so perfect, and I felt that they were the only two people in the world who understood each other, even more than their parents and their siblings. Fate can seriously rock and make the world a better place, I tell you. 

"'But I bring it up to let you know that this is the way I feel right now. Like Pluto and Jupiter are aligned with the earth and I'm floating.' In a minute, she says, "You're so weird, Finch. But that's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me."
You see? *cries and shakes again* And that brings me to my next point, the writing. Darn it, JENNIFER NIVEN KNOWS HOW TO WRITE A NOVEL. Her words flow together like two pairs, peanut butter and jelly or cookies and milk. The story never dragged, and you didn't even feel like there was some sort of repetition or some sequence that she came up with. She wrote this all with passion, and I saw Finch and Violet going to the book trailers like if it was I looking out of my window and seeing them on my front lawn. It was real, it was unique, and most of all, I never stopped reading. I read for 3 hours straight and didn't miss anything and felt like no time has gone by since everything was right in front of me. My heart fluttered, it ached for more, and the tears came out like it's normal. There was no force, and only attraction.


THIS DOESN'T. THIS HURTS. THIS WILL POSSIBLY KILL YOU. This is simply much better than a John Green ending, I must say, and everything about it was perfect (in a surprising way), and I simply couldn't believe it. It was unpredictable, and I felt like I lost my personality and I woke up, not knowing who I am or what my role in this crazy life is. I was crying for the last 100 pages, and I was shaking and my eyes blurred and I had to wipe them every two seconds because I couldn't see what the words were saying. Let me just warn you that if you don't enjoy sad endings (and this is saddest to the most saddest), then go f--- yourself, as Finch would say. Just kidding, hah. But you are crazy if you don't like sad. The feels and the emotions came out and I just felt everything, and now I'm tearing up again, just thinking about it.

When this releases in the movie theatres, I will be there opening night and I will yell when it happens as if I'm dying. 


F---, I've been here blabbing for much too long. This book has honestly changed my life, and I'm not the same person anymore. I think it can stand as my most favourite book ever, at the moment. *cries at the achievement* And if you think that's not much of a big achievement, then you're absolutely crazy and need to go on a hike and wander the gorgeous alleys of Indiana. (I'm kidding, again.) Theodore Finch and Violet Markey are two characters,  amazing people in our life that we've got to read about that will save you, even if you're not plotting on risking your life whatsoever. This book will hurt you, leave you bawling to death, but most of all, it will leave you aching for more, since that's what Jennifer Niven does best, leaving me wanting more at the end of every page that I have to keep on going on and on. 

I'd like to keep on typing forever, but I'll tell you that I know see all of the bright places in this world, and one of them is this book, and sticky notes of course.

What's your all-time favourite book? What's your most recent-read suicide-based book?

A Really Awesome Mess, by Trish Cook and Brendan Halpin

Wednesday, 9 July 2014 0 comments

A Really Awesome Mess, by Trish Cook and Brendan Halpin

Genre: Young Adult Fiction, Contemporary, Romance

Rating: 3.5/5 stars

Publication: July 23, 2013, by EgmontUSA

Format: Hardcover Edition (borrowed)





Goodreads Summary: A hint of Recovery Road, a sample of Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, and a cut of Juno. A Really Awesome Mess is a laugh-out-loud, gut-wrenching/heart-warming story of two teenagers struggling to find love and themselves.

Two teenagers. Two very bumpy roads taken that lead to Heartland Academy.
Justin was just having fun, but when his dad walked in on him with a girl in a very compromising position, Justin's summer took a quick turn for the worse. His parents' divorce put Justin on rocky mental ground, and after a handful of Tylenol lands him in the hospital, he has really hit rock bottom.

Emmy never felt like part of her family. She was adopted from China. Her parents and sister tower over her and look like they came out of a Ralph Lauren catalog-- and Emmy definitely doesn't. After a scandalous photo of Emmy leads to vicious rumors around school, she threatens the boy who started it all on Facebook.

Justin and Emmy arrive at Heartland Academy, a reform school that will force them to deal with their issues, damaged souls with little patience for authority. But along the way they will find a ragtag group of teens who are just as broken, stubborn, and full of sarcasm as themselves. In the end, they might even call each other friends.

A funny, sad, and remarkable story, A Really Awesome Mess is a journey of friendship and self-discovery that teen readers will surely sign up for.

Review:


"I could swear I heard Mohammed say, "Hey baby," as he closed the door. Who the hell called their mom "baby"? Well, I guess if he didn't have issues, he wouldn't be here."

  If you're looking for a knockoff of It's Just A Funny Story, then pick up this book. But keep in mind that this is not even close to being classified as a "favourite" for me. It was good, but really nothing special. It's just a plain, predictable contemporary read.

  

    How original was this. *unpleased poker face* A good book should be original, and should be different than anything else in this world. But this was just an under-classified mental-hospital related novel. It did have its good things and its bad, but that was the thing that bothered me this most. 

     The concept was kind of boring, I must say. It was just about two teenagers's lives through time in a mental hospital. No biggie. They got in when they did something horrible, and they all think they're angels. Justin was sent because of a scandal that his dad found him in and Emmy was caught bullying a guy because he sent a compromising photo of her onto Facebook. When they meet, they find that they have a connection through their friendship and something more.

      Despite Justin (who I will get to in a second) and the concept and idea, I really enjoyed this book. It was hilarious, witty and some sorts of fun. The plot started off great from the beginning and I was very excited to see what would happen next that dealt with the romance. :) Yes, if you knew the way I judge books from before, you'll know that I'm a sucker for romance. I wasn't really bored at all. The plot was very fast-paced the whole time through and although the events weren't the most catastrophic or suspenseful, it was a good story.

       The characters were pretty great, if you ask me. But the only one who really made everything suck was Justin. He made me want to do this to the book:


          Like he was so pointless the whole time. He was so clueless and didn't know how to live a life. All he thought about was Emmy, who's romance with him wasn't anything special. Something about him just made me loathe him and made me angry and frustrated with the whole book.

           The side characters were just awesome. Muhammad and the rest of the crew were just all kick-ass and sarcastic and hilarious! I loved them all!

           This book was okay, nothing really special. It was definitely bearable to read with, and is recommended to those who want something light and fun!